tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-141349422011-12-19T04:31:54.667-08:00Stephen Silvarajnoreply@blogger.comBlogger21100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14134942.post-1120415382297462202005-07-03T11:28:00.000-07:002005-07-03T11:29:42.300-07:00<samuell> hm.. maybe u should have another grp of frens?<br /><br />should i? ...but who?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/14134942-112041538229746220?l=stephen7-pop.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Stephen Silvarajnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14134942.post-1120318269412403952005-07-02T08:09:00.000-07:002005-07-02T08:57:22.323-07:00I want to die.I feel so sad nowadays that I feel like dying. I don't know why I feel like this. Nobody around me understands what I go through.So sad that I have no one to talk to. I hate myself. Why am I so thin. Why is everyone enjoying life and I am the one who have such things that I am afraid to even tell people.<br />There are people who don't believe me that I am sad.<br />There are people who know that I am sad and ignore me.<br />Some only know me as a joval person others know me as a sadistic person. Worst of all I am stuck in between. I don;t know who to trust. I feel like a idiot. Hm,today one person asked me to go for a jog and I promised him. Thanks buddy for believing in me. I never been so scared in my life. I made a big mistake in my life and it is haunting me. I want to share it with someone but I'm afraid I will make another mistake by sharing it with the person. Why am I so different from people. Why ? When it comes to decisions... people always make it for me. There is no love in my life. I don't know how unless someone guides me. Who is there for me? I am always ignored. No one loves me. I am so stupid thats right. God do you still love me? I don't know who to turn to...Please heal all of my hurts. For the people who spoke bad about me,please forgive them. I still want to be their friends. But is so hard. Why am I always taken advantage of. My future seems so bleak. This entry is all I.... I have become bad to worst. From the last year to now, my life has been going on this emotional roller coaster. Hopefully things will get better. I want to excel in life but I don't know how to. What will I be in the future. I envy the others coz they got everything they need. I look more like an idiot. Sucidal thoughts are killing me. Lonely.Some say I am gay. I am so sad! Did not expect lind to be like that.<br /><br />God teach me how to make friends that will last long. Sorry that I am not who I am ought to be but I really want to be ... a person after your heart.But I really don't know how to.<br /><br />ME<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/14134942-112031826941240395?l=stephen7-pop.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Stephen Silvarajnoreply@blogger.com0